Memories?

I thought I'd forget you..
But today,
I realize,
I just can't..

I talked and played with my friends so much everyday..
I'd try my best to let myself happy..
But there's still something in my heart there..
Something buried deep in my heart..
And I realize I can't dig it out..
Maybe I just need some comfort,
But not just simply from anyone of my friend,
I dunno who is able to comfort me..
I don't feel like going to start any relationship anymore..
Unless, that person is alike with you..
I won't find anyone else like you anymore..

My friends don't really like me..
I always felt that they talk about me behind me..
That made me felt like being backstabbed..
Before you leave,
You're the only one I'll be happy when I think of..
Even there's so many much sad and stress in daily life,
I still can solve it with just thinking you're with me..
But now..
I'm just so weak in my heart..
I'm so afraid what would happen next..
Would I be alone?
Without anyone?

I felt so sorry to her,
Cause I'm kinda noisy these few days..
I know she's busy with her work..
But I just can't stop myself msg-ing her..
Maybe I'm just searching for some mental dependants..
I felt safe if I tell anything to her..
But at the same time..
I felt unsafe,
Cause she's just like a friend that seems like would dissapear suddenly..
I can't bear to lose anyone anymore..

We promised to be friends forever and solve any problem together..
But,
It's kinda complicated..
I have no one to talk with anymore except her..
I can't believe people around me..

Everytime I just think of you,
I just hope that I can dream about you..
Or maybe every sweet thing between us can came out in my dream..
That's the only happy thing I had in my life..
I just hope I can dream about us..
Even its only once...